Imbroglio? *Yes it's English*

So perplexed & complicated. I really don't know. =\


days pass with nothing worthwhile
i guess i've gotta wait for a little while
cigarettes and liquor are dull
excitement and pleasures, null
heart's unoccupied
love's emptied
neither am i broken
nor mistaken
crashing into an oblivion
turning in a deviant?
that's impossible
but anything's possible
this is just some dumb writings
with sweet nothings

xoxo

Awake

Yes i know it's 7 in the morning, the birds are chriping, the sun is rising, or well, the sun had rose, and... i'm still awake, it's not like i want to, i can't sleep, i dont know why, i try all sorts, like, playing some games in my phone and pet society in facebook, i still can't sleep, i even read some cooking books, and still... i can't sleep, i guess i'll just have to wait.

p.s. - this is insane! =O (what i've written sounds strange, but not, because i sleep at 4am and wakes up in the afternoon, but this is... just weird, it's morning already, sort of)

xoxo

Strange-ness?

Well, I thought that i could like, just type out what i'm thinking so, yeah it's what I'm doing right now. I'm liking this band called 'melody fall' which is not like an english/american band, i think it's italian or spanish, *oops* i don't understand what they're rocking about but the rhythm or something is really nice. Music eases the mind, i think. Does it really matter if I'm not hooked to anyone? I mean, i see my best friends hanging out with their bfs and like... i don't know, it's like they're telling me i should get a boyfriend or something, but just you know, no matter how hot or cool that person it, if i don't have that kinda feeling, it just doesn't work, unlike some. i mean flings are... okay, i mean it's a way to get to know someone better? i don't know but, it's like no matter how perfect someone is, their flaws reveals eventually, and you know, some... are just fucked ups. so... yeah, i guess i'm not the 'anything goes' kinda person, so it's no surprise i'm still single for like... 2 months? 3 months? i don't count the days, so...about that long.

Next thing, i have natural curls/wave, and it's like divulging/revealing, and you know what, since it's still the holidays, why not just bear with it and you know, do a little temporary curls with the iron rollers thingy or whatever its called, and just go with it, blend it in. rather than getting chemicalized *i don't think that word exist*.

I miss baking... More like i miss my oven, i need an oven! the old one is a bit retarded. i mean shall i call it half spoiled? anyways it's called "i don't want it no more". cause a shitty oven's gonna produce shitty stuff. so yeah... i want a new oven... i miss making cookies, cupcakes, and every other stuff...

p.s. - i'm gonna stop a while, relating the "Zombies & A Pair of Blue Eyes", cause what's the point writing when i'm reading another book? Wouldn't it be like stealing ideas? well no, but something like copying or somethin, anyways it will just spoil the whole thing. so yeah.

*closes webpage*

xoxo

Speechless

Let's see.. I'm bored, so I'm going to write down whatever... Umm..Let me see what i did this week... Hmm... I got a new phone!! yes i said it lots of times, though its cheap, it cute and i like it, and i dont care what others think =) umm.. next.. how should i say it... well, i befriended someone? is that the right word? i hope it is .. ummm.. yeah, and what else did i do... oh yes, i read this book called "grostesque" which means monster, and it's actually a japanese novel but they kind of translated it, so yay for me, that i can read it? i think. i'm just half way finished... oh yes, i think i need to improve on my social skills? and... i don't know... gahhh whatever. i'm just bored.. i'd probably get back to writing "Zombie & A Pair of Blue Eyes" in my other blog... It's kinda stupid, & has lots of grammar errors, but you know, it's not like anyone reads it, so it's ok =D *i guess*

xoxo

It's Scary.

It's almost december, and i've not done anything regarding the nyc stuff. It's rather scary... It's like hopes are vanishing, slowly. what should i do? i really don't know... For the pass few days, it was all about fun and stuff... No, that's just not the right path...I'm scared...

xoxo

Twilight & a nicely spent thurday

I got my new phone =P blue lg ks 360 . & i watched twilight with friends. bought a book in mph bookstore. um, had nandos for brunch, and "the ultimate" drink from coffee beans, & had thai dinner . umm.. can't stop listening to robert pattinson's song called 'lullaby'. its so , um, relaxing? =D

xoxo

Confused & Tired

There's no rents available in nyc that's suitable for me or appropriate.. At least as far as i've "researched"..

Gotta go to the dentist later.. And get a new phone i think and dvds.. gonna rot on movies.. i guess.. for a while.. and got 100 bucks added to my savings.. got it from my dad's friend for my upcoming birthday, and i've decided to just hang out with parents on my birthday... and im waiting for the right time to ask dad for the 13inch macbook.. if possible..

xoxo