changing times

he's my best friend but was my ex boyfriend. but a best friend is who he should actually be, and always meant to be. haha. see changing parts wasnt so bad. sometimes you just gotta take a risk cause its worth it.
went to gurney today. cleared my thoughts after a half and hour drive with unknown loud music. pretty awesome. but im nervous about tomorrow!! gonna meet some new peeps and some old peeps. but. gawd. i wish im admitted to the hospital so i dont needa go, im way to excited.

p.s. - cultures varies? i dont think so. more of people & personality varies.

xoxo

finally something sane.

12.49am.

*laughs sinfully. finally. finally something that feels like me. so the thing was. i asked my exboyfriend out. wow. so lame ish. and then. before that some weird rich brat asked me out. i thought my saturday would be ruined by him. butbutbut!!!... woohoo *flings bra virtually reaction. my ex boyfriend accepted my invitation. wallah! i hope he makes my saturday less lame. been stuck in the house for whole 5 damned days already. needa go out!!.. its so fucking bored!.. oh yeah. feeling ecstatic. hopefully it wudnt be a lame saturday. hopefully!!.. haha.

p.s. - i hope he's not hooked. or else i'd be going emo for being a bitch later on!!.. but he didnt mention so im not making a crime.

since ages i've blogged.

"when the night come. we can stay in bed. what can be talked about and its better left unsaid" (another of my puzzle piece)

im gonna write about the months that werent written down.

beginning of september. this girl accidently ditched this guy whom she assumed didn't did anything to her that wud've broken her heart. so anyways. she got into skateboarding. and then she met this dude. well actually dudes. but lets just start with dude number one. he was all nice and shit at the beginning but. in the end, he's just plain boring and shit, and likes to make a lot of assumptions when he doesnt know anything. and lets just say he's also annoying.
chapter 2. then the other guy's a clandestine. ok so skip this chapter.
chapter 3. ditched the guy number one. and thinking back about the ex boyfriend, that's just so lame of her. yeah. she's some stupid freak who has so many junk up her head. but she thinks probably the ex boyfriend's already hooking up with someone else. now.. she's thinking of going out another new guy this saturday, or skip that and go out with the ex. but the thing is that the ex havent replied her invitationn yet. thats a whole lot of confusion. pity her, not. haha.

thats partially the story of a girl.

p.s. - playlist addictions. songs > anarbor - where the wild things are.
ashlee simpson - (lots of her songs)
the academy is...- song about a girl
katy perry - self inflicted
katy perry - waking up in vegas
(and some others)


xoxo. its always a clandestine.

clownfish is evil. clownfish is evil. clownfish is evil. clownfish is evil. clownfish is evil. clownfish is evil. clownfish is evil. clownfish is evil. clownfish is evil. clownfish is evil. clownfish is evil. clownfish is evil. clownfish is evil. clownfish is evil. clownfish is evil. clownfish is evil.

wait.. thats enough..
hmmm..

anyway.. i found my favourite cake =) (sort of.. =X)
it's summer garden's cheesecake.. YUM..

(playing "hey jude-the beatles} [i must b crazy to b interested in this song but its absolutely addictive!..today, well actually yesterday, clownfish, he.. texted me! (gawsshh i shudnt b that excited) anyways his dumb excuse, not saying i dont believe, for his day longs reply is due to insufficient phone credits. *rolls eyes. i asked him to get me a few cds, hope he'll get 'em for me, but i seriously doubt that he'll get it, i know it. i like the new singer marie digby!.. she rocks!.. she has good lyrics.. super meaningful ones.. i think i'm going to fail my maths. dang..! i really really hope i get pass maths!.. it's one of my greatest failure in studies. i just can't seem to understand maths. nevermind the history, it's so boring.. hmmm.. i don't mean to say that i'm all over sane, but why are some people so weird, think that they're right even though they're wrong, it just looks so stupid. yikes!.. all i wanna do now is most probably to get through with my studies and hopefully leave this disgusting place..

p.s. - for the record, i'm confused?

hmmm.. stupid arshhholishtic clownfish. just say "i dun wanna b frens with u anymore" is waayy better than ignorance and surprises outta a sudden then ignorance.. damn..damn..damned.

p.s.- nothing.

hmm.. i hate clownfish.

he only calls me when he's bored shitless,
but for i who's dumb i couldn't care less,
and he ignores and disappears when he's with her,
but in my reality there's way no other,
i doesn't understand the puzzle he's making,
and all the non-advantages he's taking,
is he having his revengeance for last summer,
when i was having all the sweet times shimmer,
now he's leaving me hopeless and mindless,
lying on this cement ground useless,
i can't forget and i can't cry,
all i have is thoughts and how i try,
and the lies and bullshit he said,
and bits of the phonebills he had paid,
that's all he had ever sacrificed,
to prevent him self from getting bored,
this is all i have to say,
and miseries i have to pay.

p.s. - it explains all.